Two months to go

Two months. Nine weeks to be exact. 66 days to be exact. It may seem like a lot of days. It’s really not. It’s nothing. Days fly past before your eyes and just like that the entire month of May is gone. No, five months of 2017 is gone. 66 more days…I’m ready for Redding. But I’m not.

It’s been stressful. I won’t sweet talk it. I tend to come across as always being calm and happy. But I have to. I need to. But honestly, a lot of the times it felt like I was close to having a mental breakdown. I don’t know why we do this. Why we know God will provide, yet we still question his ways. I’m not new to this faith thing, but this is the biggest step I’ve ever taken in my entire life. I could have never imagined that it would be this hard.

But today a nation’s prayers were answered and rain came pouring down in the midst of a drought. Not drizzles but storms. And I just feel this has been confirmation on God’s promises. He hears us. He sees us. And He takes care of us. 

My tuition needs to be paid in full before August and my flights need to be paid in full as well. Since I’m an international student. If 300 people each gave $30, that would make $9k paying off my tuition costs which are $3950, and my visa/sevis costs. It would pay my flights, and two months of rent and living costs.

If you feel in your heart to help me get to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, here is how you can help:

1. Either through the YouCaring Crowdfunder. https://www.youcaring.com/MilanieCronjegoestoBethel

2. Donate in my Trust Account
Acc name: Kriecron Trust

Acc numb: 62591599025

Branch: First National Bank

Branch code: 200111

SWIFT CODE: Moorreesburg

FiRNZAJJ306

Or bank account:

Account name: L. Cronje
Account type: Savings

Account number: 62687076333

Branch: First National Bank

Branch code: 200111

SWIFT CODE: Moorreesburg

FiRNZAJJ306

3. https://my.bssm.net/donations/students/search
4. https://my.bssm.net/donations/transactions/new?student_binder=17731

5. or paypal account: paypal.me/MilanieCronje

6. Keep praying for supernatural provision to come in. 

My God is a God that makes the impossible become possible. My God is a God who provides for our needs above and beyond. My God is a God of Love and provision.
Love and Blessings

Milanie xx

Life update #2

It’s been a couple of weeks since my last life update. During these past couple of days, quite a lot has happened.

  • Firstly, I submitted my manuscript to a literary agency in New York while housesitting the first week of May. 
  • Then I applied for a passport and actually got it in a week. Which is crazy. That rarely happens. When I first got my I.D I waited for nearly 3 months.
  • My I-20 form has been mailed and will be here soon, making it possible for me to apply for my visa.
  • This morning at around 1am South African time, someone anonymously donated into my BSSM account, covering all outstanding costs for my deposit. When I first saw the notification, I broke down crying because it’s been something I’ve been praying and worrying over for a very long time.
  • My entire wall has become a vision board with scripture verses, prophecies and promises. It is now my focus wall.
  • I’m stuck without my mum for two weeks and it is pure hell. Can’t imagine not seeing her for 10 months.
  • I can officially say, I now know how to make lasagne. And speak a little bit of Portuguese without stammering.

    School Life?


    I recently had to submit a book report on the book When Heaven Invades Earth by Bill Johnson. Absolutely incredible book. One of my new favourites. Still hate book reports though. Outreaches are starting soon where we’ll start ministering in hospitals. Incredibly excited for this.

    Love life?

    What’s that?


    Testimonies of how God has been working in my life lately?

    • Firstly he made it possible for $435 to be paid towards my tuition by a complete stranger. Which is craazy amazing!
    • He’s been giving me a lot of peace concerning my move.
    • He gave me so many new friends from the states who I’ve come to love and adore so much.
    • He healed me miraculously when I woke up incredibly sick with severe stomach pain.

    How God has been showering His love and favour and Provision on Me has been overwhelming. At one point I wondered if I really deserved it. The question didn’t stay long. God loves me. And He finds pleasure in me. And He loves to show me that He does. God has been so good to me, and He always will be.

    I truly believe the same Father God who’s been blessing me so much, can bless you as well.

    Love and Blessings

    Milanie xx

    My love

    My love,

    When I was younger, I always thought marriage was something that held someone back. The end of a person’s liberty and freedom. I was always scared of marriage and the implications that I might be forced to settle down and live in a routine. I’m terrified of routine. But the thing is, since the moment I met you, we’ve never had a routine. It was an adventure.

    Marrying you doesn’t mean we have stopped dating. We will always be dating. Marrying you is not the end of my liberty. It’s the beginning of it.

    You’re the person I want to dive headfirst into life with. When I go out on weekends, it’s you I want by my side. When I’m planning another one of our million adventures, I want you holding the map with a small frown when you’re confused. But we know we’ll figure it out. We always have. When I speculate about the future, I want to see you in every crazy fantasy I plan for myself.  You’re the one I want to cuddle up and watch football with. You’re the only one I want to get tipsy with. And I want you to be the one who listens to my emotional rants. You are the one I want to dance around the house with in only our underwear. You’re the person who makes the whole world feel wide open to me and I want to take advantage of that. I want to plunge into the future with you, cause honestly it looks bigger and better by your side than I ever could’ve imagined.

    I don’t want to settle down with you. I  want to take off with you. To far away countries, foreign landscapes, wherever God may take us. To gems and corners of the world that would only have looked half as amazing without you by my side. 
    When I pray and minister to people, I want you right there by my side praying and ministering with me. And when God heals people, I want to see that smile on your face as we see the amazing works of God take place. And when I’m diving into the Word, I want you beside me as we both drink cups of tea because we’ve never been the biggest fans of coffee. 

    When I strap on a backpack with a camera in my hands and head to the airport, I want you to be the one boarding that plane with me. You’re the person I want  to get lost with, set up camp with, go on sunset missions with, praise God with.
    When I get home and have tale after ridiculous tale to recite to my friends of how Amazing God is, you’re the one I want there to add to the stories and details I may have left out. 

    You’re the person I want to come home to and the person I want to escape with. I want you on every adventure I take for the rest of my life. I want to do everything on earth with you. 

    I don’t want to be the person you always agree with. I want to be the person you challenge- to change, to grow, to expand in ways that wouldn’t have occurred to me before I met you. I want heated debates at 3am and make out sessions at 4. I want a love so strong and passionate because your fire fuels mine, and I never want that spark to die.
    I choose you. I will choose you every single day, for as long as there’s air in my lungs, and I will keep choosing you and keep loving you no matter what life may throw our way, because God chose us and He loved us first.

    Love and Blessings

    Milanie xx

    The countdown begins

    ​Lovely humans of the universe. In 55 days, I’m turning a year older.


    Now why on earth am I talking about the day I was brought to life, two months before it actually happened? As some of you may know, I’ve recently been accepted to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry (biggest bday present ever) from August 2017 to May 2018. With this alone being a huge blessing, I need your help. Since it is almost my birthday and all *cough* *cough* *wink* *wink* 

    If 100 people each gave $20, that would make $2k. Paying off the deposit for bethel and my accommodation, the visa payment, and a small fraction of the tuition so far.

    So here is how you can help:

    1. Either through the YouCaring Crowdfunder. https://www.youcaring.com/MilanieCronjegoestoBethel

    2. Donate in my Trust Account

    Acc name: Kriecron Trust

    Acc numb: 62591599025

    Branch: First National Bank

    Branch code: 200111

    SWIFT CODE: Moorreesburg

    FiRNZAJJ306
    Or bank account:

    Account name: L. Cronje
    Account type: Savings

    Account number: 62687076333

    Branch: First National Bank

    Branch code: 200111

    SWIFT CODE: Moorreesburg

    FiRNZAJJ306

    3. Choose someone and give a short description of who they are and what they’re like. I’ll be praying over it and writing something (Poetry/Word) for them/you in return. (You’re not buying it. I want to bless you because you blessed me.) Someone once asked me how a writer would describe them, so thought I’d start doing that.

    4. Pray. Pray for supernatural provision to come in, in the next nineteen days. Pray for my manuscript to be picked up by an agency and HarperCollins. And pray for divine healing in my body.
    My God is a God that makes the impossible become possible. My God is a God who provides for our needs above and beyond. My God is a God of Love and provision.

    Love and Blessings

    Milanie xx

    BSSM

    As most of you all probably know, on the 21st of April 2017, I was accepted to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry (BSSM) and that I’ll be moving to California in August.

    This move is huge for me and everyone around me. A couple of people have asked me the same questions over and over again, and instead of having to repeatmyself numerous times, I thought I’d do a FAQ to help all my friends and family understand what’s actually taking place in my life and make it very clear than no, I am not going to Hogwarts. (I’ve been asked this twice)

    When did you get accepted?

    April 21st, 2017. I made no secret about wanting to and going to attend Bethel because I knew God called me two years ago, to go this year. So I wanted to share it with everyone, whether they supported me or not. I had some issues with health that made me question whether I should apply, but everything has been overcome and I’m as healthy as can be.

    When do you leave?

    I’ll be in Redding on the 5th of August

    When does school start and until when?
    31st of August 2017 until 8th May, 2018

    Will you be travelling by yourself?

    Unfortuantely, yes. I’ll be doing everything by myself. Flying alone for the very first time. Navigating foreign airports. Getting to Redding then moving into my shared apartment. And familiarizing myself with Redding for the the next month. It’s quite daunting. The first time moving out of the house (Sort of, I’ve been living out of a suitcase for the past four months) and I’ll be moving to another continent. Scary.

    When is your last Sunday at Kingdom Lifestyle Ministry?

    30th July

    When is your last Sunday at Journey of Grace?

    23rd July

    Will you be having a going away party?

    Who knows. I’m not very good at emotional goobyes. Of course I’d love to catch up with as many people as possible before I go. Don’t have anything planned at the moment. Perhaps closer to the date.

    Is Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry Hogwarts or like Hogwarts?

    No. No it’s not. It’s better.

    Will you be getting yourself a British, Brazilian or American husband?

    No words…

    Are you sure about moving to the States?

    Yes. Yes I am.

    How long will you be gone?

    The main plan is three years, (Three years of school) and coming back to South Africa between May and July each year after graduation. But for now it’s only one year.
    What will you be studying at BSSM?

    I added a link to what I weill be studying and doing there. http://bssm.net/school/academics

    Why BSSM? 

    God told me to go two years ago and I’m just being obedient to His Voice.

    What are your living arrangements?

    I’ve been in contact with Revival Apartments, and Destiny Housing. Still waiting for a response.

    How will you travel around when living there?

    Walking, public transport, Uber and carpooling

    Can you work in the States?

    Nope. Without a greencard I won’t be able to work there.

    If you marry an American you can get a greencard and work there?

    Sigh…

    What is the cost and can I help donate towards your future?

    The final cost is $35K. It’s so high because of the exchange rate between South Africa and America. You can donate here if you’d like.

    Acc name: Kriecron Trust

    Acc numb: 62591599025

    Branch: First National Bank

    Branch code: 200111

    SWIFT CODE: Moorreesburg

    FiRNZAJJ306

    How else can I help?

    Please just keep praying for me. I’ve been receiving intense attacks on my emotional state, with stress and anxiety piling up drastically. So all I can ask for is prayer. And lots of it.

    Will you still be involved in writing and photography?

    Definitely without a doubt. Since I can’t work, I’ll be focusing on this a lot, building experience and furthering my knowledge.

    How can I stay connected with you while in the States?

    Facebook – Milanie Grae

    Whatsapp and phone calls

    Skype – Milanie Cronje

    Instagram – @milaniegrae / @sandcastlesandpaperplanes

    Email – milaniegrae@gmail.com

    Love and Blessings

    Milanie xx

    Accepted

    The moment I saw the email, a scream of excitement left me. My family thought there was a bug in my room. I only scream when there are bugs in my room. I’m really scared of bugs. But this time, it wasn’t fear. It was pure joy. I have been accepted to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry! 
    So, let me paint a picture of where I’m coming from and how God’s Love and Provision can shake your entire world. My past isn’t a nice one. Anything except nice. But it’s also my greatest testimony. I went through things and did things, I wouldn’t wish on anyone. I dropped out of high school to pursue my passions which was frowned on by most. And that label of inadequacy had stayed with me for a very long time. But God pulled me out of all of that, and gave me a new life and a new identity in Him. God forgave me for everything. 

    “And forgiveness in effect changes the past. God’s journal records our life from the perspective of His forgiveness and our faith. His book of Remembrance doesn’t contain our history of sin and stupidity.” – Kris Vallotton

    “When God views a believer’s history like that, who are we to do otherwise? The blood actually changes our history into His story. Some years ago I heard a Prophetic Word that really touched my heart. In it God spoke saying, I will not remove the scars from your life. Instead I will rearrange them in such a way that they have the appearance of carving on a fine piece of Crystal. Such is the love of God. What was despised becomes a testimony of God’s grace – a thing of beauty.” – Kris Vallotton

    When He first told me I was going into ministry, I thought it was a joke. I was the least suitable, least qualified person ever. I was completely broken and He wanted me to reach out to the broken. But through the years, I have become restored and healed. I have taken up a new identity. One that says I am accepted and qualified. He went further to start showing me a specific place, and gave me specific name where I would be based one day. I sat with my Bible and a Map, and asked Him where He wants to place me. I got my answer. Salvador, Bahia, Brazil. 

    Every area of your life can be used as a stepping stone towards your destiny in Christ. A process of building a strong foundation. A journey of drawing closer to the heart of the Father. 

    My mum always likes to use this example about David when I get impatient about going to Brazil. She says that for many years, David was being prepared by God in secret. He had to grow, and learn, and build a relationship with His Creator. He had to wait for many years as the foundation was being built in his life, before he could become King. He was annointed at a young age, but it took time before he could step into his calling. 

    I feel the same goes for me. Cape Town School of Supernatural Ministry has been this for me. And so will Bethel. When David was ready, God released him into Kingship. And the day I am ready, God will release me to the world.

    Love and Blessings

    Milanie xx

    Milanie goes to Bethel: Costs and Faith

    Crowdfunding

    (NOUN) 1. Crowdfunding is the practice of funding a project or cause by raising money from a large number of people, typically through the internet. It is a form of peer-to-peer fundraising that harnesses the power of social networks to raise awareness and draw donations from around the world for online campaigns.

    With the fact that my crowdfunder launched recently, I thought I’d give some more insight, not only on crowdfunding but Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry and the finacial aspect of moving to America as well. 

    The idea of a crowdfunder came to me one day when I saw a girl from USA utilizing it to help with her college funds. We were in similar circumstances, unable to pay for future studies, and the initiative inspired me to create my own. Below I added a link to the crowdfunding platform, explaining why and how it works. I created this crowdfunder to help support me in moving to America and studying at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry since I’m in no position to afford it and standing in complete faith to go.

    https://www.youcaring.com/crowdfunding

    https://www.youcaring.com/MilanieCronjegoestoBethel

    Below I added a link to the official Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry website. On the website, you’ll be able to see Bethel’s vision, values and exactly what takes place at BSSM.
    http://bssm.net/

    So, working out the financial aspects was difficult. Because you see these numbers in front of you, and you need to keep your focus on the Supernatural instead of the Natural. 

    Total Estimated Costs Include: $30K-$35K

    • Tuition and Accommodation: $8000
    • Monthly living costs: $900 p/month = $8100
    • Flights: $3000
    • Utilities – Around $5K for the year.
    • Extra’s (Including Medical and Travel Insurance, transportation, school supplies like laptop/camera that will serve the Kingdom, and clothes since I won’t be able to ship anything over) : $4000
    • Visa fee: $190
    • End year mission trip: $1000

    In the next 21 days, I’ll need to pay the first two deposits (tuition and accomodation) to guarantee my spots. This alone will be around $800.

    After the deposits are paid, flights will need to be booked, the full tuition cost will need to be paid before August 1 since I’m an international student, and my Visa costs will need to be sorted out.

    Then the payment of travel and medical insurance and any extras will follow.

    The first crowdfunder goal is $10,500 by end June. 

    The second crowdfunder goal increase will be $10,500 by August.

    And the third crowdfunder goal increase will be between $4000  depending on how much is still needed.

    If you feel led to partner with me financially, you’re welcome to contribute to my fundraiser for Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry or through my Trust Account:

    Acc name:Kriecron Trust

    Acc numb: 62591599025

    Branch: First National Bank
    Branch code: 200111

    SWIFT CODE: Moorreesburg
    FiRNZAJJ306

    I am standing in complete faith that God will provide. He told me to go, and I believe that if He has called me to go, He will make a way.

    Love and Blessings

    Milanie xx